I Just Want You To Know

I just want you to know that I
find you unbearable sometimes.
The way you speak to me
in a manner that is full of pretense
and mask your hatred in smiles.
But sometimes I really like you
and glad we're friends.

I just want you to know that I
find you rather attractive.
I like the way your hair falls
and the way you slip your hand into mine
and the feeling it gives me.
I love the way I feel about you.
I want you to talk to me more and
have conversations that last for a long time
and for us to hang out often and
just be each others'.

I just want you to know that I
find you adorably kind.
The things that we talk about
and your reactions to my actions
and how you show me that at least
one person will always care for me
no matter what I do
just make me want to always be close friends.

I just want you to know that I
find you completely annoying.
The face you make when someone
mentions a thing or person you don't like
or the way you try to escape every task
and complain about it like it's someone else's.
Or the way you try to attract attention
through many harmful ways and things
I don't like you really, you see.

I just want you to know that I
find you life bringing.
Whether you laugh at my stupid jokes
or just being yourself with your denseness
or calling me at eleven pm because you are bored
and don't care if I'm half asleep, you're bored
I find myself happier and more awake.
Thank you for listening to me, always
and putting up with me. I love you.

I just want you to know that I
find you one of my favorite people.
Rarely, you annoy me but
I want to hang out with you more
and actually be actual best friends.
Being around you is comfortable
even in the silences when we're watching
something and I love being with you
and you help me. Thankyou.

I just want you to know that I
find you a confusing happiness.
Sometimes I don't know what I think of you
and what you do and say and think
and how I feel about you
and how you feel about me too.
But I know I'm healing from the past and you
and I thought it might not be like the others' stories
and life would be a lot boring without everything
and what's conspired between of the two of us.